Monday, August 01, 2005

What do you do when God is silent?

LossOur home is grieving. We have lost the promise of new life, and we don't know what to do.

The doctors have said "It's good it happened now", but I'm really having a hard time seeing it that way.

I want to comfort Carol, but I don't know what to say.

I hold her close. Jake and I tell her how much we love her, but it doesn't feel like it's enough.

I can only imagine the loss she's feeling.

We're praying for a miracle, but we're not sure what is God's will. We pray for life, for peace, for grace and understanding.

We found out we were expecting on July 13th, and we were so happy. We were overjoyed.

I remember feeling sadness reading John Wilks' blog a few days later when he blogged about his family suffering through a lost pregnancy. I thought how hard that must be. Now, I know that I had no idea.

It sucks. Everything just really sucks.

I am trying to think of something profound to say, but the words aren't here.

I'm going to go hug my wife and hold her close.

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